"The Lord compensates the faithful for every loss. That which is taken away from those who love the Lord will be added unto them in His own way. While it may not come at the time we desire, the faithful will know that every tear today will eventually be returned a hundredfold with tears of rejoicing and gratitude."

~Joseph B. Wirthlin

 I know Heavenly Father is aware of my bleeding heart. I know that every night he hears my cry. This is going to be soo painful. I can't even begin to "fake" the strength that it will take. But I know that we CAN and WILL get thru it. I just hope that I can do it with dignity. Letting the happiness shine thru all the bitterness and sorrow.

Happy 4th Birthday my Angel

 Time does soften the blow but will never fill the hole. It's crazy how much a heart can ache for a child. For the most part I have come to peace with the Lords Will. I don't agree with it most days but I do know that one day , when I have a better understanding... that I will be so glad for our sacrifice as a family in letting our sweet child return to our Father in Heaven. I know she is doing wonderful work in Heaven that could only be performed in Heaven. So for that I am grateful. She is our guardian angel. She make us all want to become better. She has taught me alot about faith. WE love and miss our sweet Zoe and are so thankful for our Payten. Happy 4th Birthday girls!!!!




{It brings tears to my eyes everytime I see these pictures, so much love and support}

 


We {LOVE} you Zoe!

 









I am soo glad Payten has sweet Brooklyn. She is her earthly twin.







Sending all our {LOVE} sweet angel

 

Happy Sweet 3rd Birthday Zoe

As each year goes by I miss you the same. I LONG for you, my arms ache to hold you. Doesn't seem fair, doesn't make sence. BUT this I know.......One day we will be together AGAIN! Happy Birthday Zoe angel. Watch over us, protect us, comfort us, lay your head down on our pillows at night. WE LOVE you!

Jade: "Happy Birthday Zoe. Hope your having fun with Heavenly Father in Heaven."

Payten: folds her arms and starts praying....

We miss you everyday ZOE NOELE!

We thought of you with love today, but that is nothing new. We thought about you yesterday, and days before that too. We think of you in silence, we often speak your name. All we have are memories, and your picture in a frame. Your memory is our keepsake, with which we will never part. God has you in His keeping, we have you in our hearts. A million times we’ve wanted you. A million times we cried. If love could only have saved you, you never would have died. It broke our hearts to lose you. But you didn’t go alone. For a part of us went with you... the day God called you Home.

~Author Unknown~

Happy 1st Birthday Zoe Noele!!!!

I hope you know how much you are LOVED and MISSED. I can't believe it has been a year. 1 year ago today I was holding you in my arms and kissing your sweet face. I still remember combing your hair over and over. I can't believe how much hair you had. Oh how I would have loved to do it every morning. You came so PERFECT on the outside. Just beautiful! I didn't want to let you go. Hours and hours after holding you I was bitter letting the nurses take you away. We all got to hold and love you, how I felt your spirit pierce mine. But I know passed loved ones took your spirit away before your body left mine. Some how I felt a little peace, I knew you were far away from this wicked world and safe now. I feel so blessed to be given your sweet spirit, and I know that you are up in Heaven awaiting our arrival. Encouraging us to be better, so that some day we will be WHOLE again. An Eternal family. So until we meet again my sweet ANGEL I love and miss you! Happy Birthday Baby!

Birthday wishes your way our SWEET ANGEL BABY!

(love ALL you family)

(Jade said these balloons were doing the "cha cha" silly Jade always making us laugh!)

OHHHHH what a wonderful day!

Happy Easter Zoe!